backbreaking

Every time i start off to write a post, i feel i should improvise at least a few factors like the words i use to describe , the grammar and more importantly the wordplay [like screenplay] that should be used while describe some feeling/situation of mine and my own mind. And this lead me awestruck at orators, directors and writers , how they manage to express their minds so splendidly and the grueling imaginations they need to have, and how they feel after see their work , the simple mistakes and the blunders done by them in doing so.

aah..this takes me to my collage final year days , the time for slamming everybody left and right and make them realize how bad/good they are ;) and recently happened to read my roommate's slam where i penned down my thoughts about her. it was almost 3years past the same month i wrote in her book and reading it now made me ROLF for half an hour and still brings me a smile writing this sentence. I was so innocent in my thoughts then , so simple and very much confused [not that i am clearheaded now;)]

but the fact is , i find it so arduous to just pen down how, why and where i felt something postable on my own web world..

some how i feel i have heaps of time with me now and not able to utilize / plan it properly, aim at certain things and complete it effortlessly.. life seems to be great with no responsibilities;). for setting simple goals, once i get time and leap forward and think about future i just feel its full of dark and where am i guided to??

- a non conclusive post