Fear

i am afraid of life
i jst cant look into someones eyeys and cry out "no, u r wrong!!"
i dont take risks because i am afraid of the failure.
i want to be lonely because i dont want to be called a bore.
i am confused within myself.
and ofcourse i hate myself in many ways, in each and every move.

i was afraid to say to mom that dont love me so much that i cant do anything without u
i was afraid to cry to dad that beat me so that i can learn things
i was afraid to be called B grader in my own class.
i am afraid of being proud of myself.
i am afraid of my teachers that they would discover me copying from my own notebook jst to get a mark extra.
i am afraid to be called as jerk,maroon,stupid

and what all i am afraid of, may be with myself

then also i say - i am my favorite, because with all these fears i can laugh at myself, i can act to be happy.