Fear

i am afraid of life
i jst cant look into someones eyeys and cry out "no, u r wrong!!"
i dont take risks because i am afraid of the failure.
i want to be lonely because i dont want to be called a bore.
i am confused within myself.
and ofcourse i hate myself in many ways, in each and every move.

i was afraid to say to mom that dont love me so much that i cant do anything without u
i was afraid to cry to dad that beat me so that i can learn things
i was afraid to be called B grader in my own class.
i am afraid of being proud of myself.
i am afraid of my teachers that they would discover me copying from my own notebook jst to get a mark extra.
i am afraid to be called as jerk,maroon,stupid

and what all i am afraid of, may be with myself

then also i say - i am my favorite, because with all these fears i can laugh at myself, i can act to be happy.

cricketainment

I was pondering over the title of this post , ya its cricket but with too much of entertainment, howz that? :)what do u expect from any bollywood flick for complete entertainment? lovely ppl, big scenes, fights , emotions and ofcourse a great feel good end.Dont you think our IPL had all the above mentioned traits? , this had all the lovely ppl who had to get into action without any cuts , Big scenes of ball crossing the stadium with a strike rate exceeding 200, the slaps on ground, emotions filled with tears and ofcourse too many things..The ppl who will first and foremost be missing the whole drama as it reached the end,are the news channels whose breaking news scrolls where always filled with this news.
Atleast i had too much of fun during this IPL melodrama, tracking it from day 1 to the end, infact i was determined to avoid this before it got started off seeing too much hype on channels, on roads with banners and traffic as bangalore was the center stage for inaugaration.I should say because of this i came to know about too many players , started supporting ppl impartially without any geographical reasons, just based upon their real talent, attitude.
I had come to know about the over talked conterversies, the arrogance of shane,belligerence of symonds, nile biting tensions on dhoni's face, stupid fun of sreeshanth, coolness of shaun pollock.
but the whole fun is different here, its not the same game when all the ppl sitting at home used to support OUR country and pray for the rains though players themselves are least concerned about their performances and celebrate together when the team wins. Now its my dad on one side, me on the opposite side, when one is praying for the team to strike six and other same person sitting next to u pray for a wicket, at the end there is no celebration all together :( which used to be my best part in watching cricket.
Good or bad , it has hit the chords of hard core cric fans and their attitudes which is cashed properly proving that indians can make the best business men in the world.

AMAV

I am not throwing out a complex vocab, come on its just another short forms of a tollywood movie called "aaduvari maatalaku arthale verule", ah such a big name,though its outdated to have the films named with looooong names.I am not giving a review of the movie, this one got released almost a year back when i was at hyd.

Hmm..but missed to watch it then, out of many a reasons,few of them were the monotonous copied sequels done by venkatesh,the lead role of this flick,usual family melo drama concept portrayed by the posters of this one.

I did get to watch this one.
There should not be any reason to like a movie similar to love which doesn't/shouldn't have as i believe;).enjoying one rely on company along whom u watch it,sometimes one's mood too.This one i felt outraged all these, with few practicalities like soothing music score,well portrayal of relations.I liked on top of all the just required overacting by venky and the character of kota as father of a useless son. The situations between these two characters are thrown out so perfectly that one feels the same to be as a next to door happening in every middle class indian family. Also the guy frndship between venky and co,waking up frnds at midnight to share the most exciting moments,not only caring but slapping for the mistakes.

Second half is bit boring where most of the scenes can be fast forwarded,but can be paused and played at few reels apart from the funny parts.All and all not as bad and bubble gum stretched movie as seems at the first sight. of course definitely a good ruminative subject presented by the director..watch out!!

long time ...

i was just pondering over many a issues which are post able, many in fact
but couldn't manage to post even a single one in near past , don't know why,though i had loads of time!!
may be why do i really blog? just to kill some time , otherwise which i would waste in browsing orkut[the most worthless job i am doing now a days], or to improve my vocabulary which i feel is deteriorating day by day, may be no one is satisfying my ego of posting comments for my previous ones ;) or may be my daily routine at work is paralysing me in spending some good amount of time on this..
well, i dont know either!!
but i would promise my blog readers, rather than me that i will try to put more of myself in my own space here as i move forward
yep!! look for me then ;)

backbreaking

Every time i start off to write a post, i feel i should improvise at least a few factors like the words i use to describe , the grammar and more importantly the wordplay [like screenplay] that should be used while describe some feeling/situation of mine and my own mind. And this lead me awestruck at orators, directors and writers , how they manage to express their minds so splendidly and the grueling imaginations they need to have, and how they feel after see their work , the simple mistakes and the blunders done by them in doing so.

aah..this takes me to my collage final year days , the time for slamming everybody left and right and make them realize how bad/good they are ;) and recently happened to read my roommate's slam where i penned down my thoughts about her. it was almost 3years past the same month i wrote in her book and reading it now made me ROLF for half an hour and still brings me a smile writing this sentence. I was so innocent in my thoughts then , so simple and very much confused [not that i am clearheaded now;)]

but the fact is , i find it so arduous to just pen down how, why and where i felt something postable on my own web world..

some how i feel i have heaps of time with me now and not able to utilize / plan it properly, aim at certain things and complete it effortlessly.. life seems to be great with no responsibilities;). for setting simple goals, once i get time and leap forward and think about future i just feel its full of dark and where am i guided to??

- a non conclusive post

Advertising "Dabba"ed

I was just going through all the channels of my interest sitting alone at home during this pongal vacation and was just bored of too much commercialization of the festive season, whosoever's movies are in theatre , suddenly from nowhere they will be there right in front of u for a big lecture abt the movie and all the stupid things they have undergone during shooting and ofcourse every actor/actress has the same answers and even the anchors has the same questions[this process was interesting when i was lil younger, but not atleast now :(] and for a change i just happened to stop at aaj tak [which is not my cup of tea]and heard very attentively at the news , it struck me every much.


The all day reliance buzzer ad now a days is "power on, india on", i liked the tune of the commercial so much , may be this made me stop at that news channel, as the news was abt the same.


In mumbia , as all of us know the dabbawala concept which is very much famous for its accurate delivaries [ i.e.99.9999% of deliveries are made without error, he is at CMMi level 6] is used for the advertising the reliance power. Each dabbawala will be given the prospects voucher , so that each one who recievs the dabba will recieve this voucher too and if impressed can immediately go for investing , just filling the voucher suppiled to them and inturn this dabbawaalas deliver back their respective vouchers filled in to the reliance outlets for further processing.


Howz the idea?[may sound to u stupid also],see instead of depending upon an agent standing near the gates of banks, roads and malls , this idea seemed to be better and brilliant to me , even touches the CMMI level6 with 0.00001% error;)

What Being A Fan Means:)

I still remember the golden days of 2003 world cup
the best matches, the best runs and the best entertainment though it was final exams for 2ndyear2ndsem of my graduation.
I should say that was my best year in my academics and also for indian team where the best team spirit was built up.
As usual i was a big cricket buzzer when i was a kid (may be common indian influence) even.
But with age, as the interests change, may be interests vanishes even ;), i didnt follow even a single match till this golden year:).
As india did well in those matches and reached finals and though lost final against Aussies with a lump difference, our spirits were drastically lifted up.

Later on there was a cup against Aussies again and me who has reached to heights of collecting the whole news of our team, this time wouldnt take a chance to miss it. There were so many new faces in our team then(though now also we see atleast a new face being added for every match) and one among them was this teenager.

It was his pure luck (which is infact his hardwork) to become the star of the match and leading india to win the cup(dont remember the cup name) against Aussies.As far as i remember he scored almost 25runs(though he is a bowler and indian bowlers dont even know how to hold the bat properly- purely my personal view) and took 4 cricial wickets, man!! he was just 19 then.

Everyone in our TV room of our hostel just awe struck at his performance(not only the BCCI) and i was one among the few crazy who stay back till the end of the presenting cermony to listen to the words and see the happy faces of our team.Ob, the man of the match was called and asked to tell how he was feeling with his performance and it was said by him that "i believe in god and just becuase of that i am in this position", - the most appreciated humbleness which left a very good impression on my mind.

Next it was the competition among my roommates to read the Sports page of The Hindu and somehow my eyes fell on this article in editorial which is rarely visited by page turners(but considered the best articles among all) and there was this below article published which was written so well, with all minute details of his where-abts,his reaction after the match and his background which just impressed me like anything and this articles cutting also went in my cricket collection.

http://www.shashitharoor.com/articles/hindu/irfan.php

With time and due to some shifts from one room to another in our hostel i lost that collection and there in some corner I got this paper cutting back after 2years when i was back to home finishing my graduation making feel nostalgic , from then I preserved this as a remain of those golden days.

And now I just dont know whats happening in the team india, but whenever I see Pathan playing I just watch it and wish him the best and one should see happiness in my face when he replicates the game which he played nearly 4years ago against Australia.

I wish you the best, may be my list of favs change but you will be one among the few who will never get deleted from this list.